献给母亲——billy--Adore(Crestfallen)

Who am I to need you when I'm down?
Where are you when I need you around?
Your life is not your own

And all I ask you
Is for another chance
Another way around you
To live by circumstance, once again

Who am I to need you now?
To ask you why, to tell you no
To deserve your love and sympathy
You were never meant to belong to me

And you may go, but I know you won't leave
Too many years built into memories
Your life is not your own

Who am I to need you now?
To ask you why, to tell you no
To deserve your love and sympathy
You were never meant to belong to me

Who am I to you?
Along the way
I lost my faith

And as you were, you'll be again
To mold like clay, to break like dirt
To tear me up in your sympathy
You were never meant to belong to me
You were never meant to belong to me
You were never meant to belong to me

Who am I?

the smashing pumpkins的主唱billy的悲观情绪总是能主宰周遭的人们，在深夜,带些微醉，聆听adore的时候会被这反朴归真式的他们深深打动。这些音乐愈夜愈美丽。

billy动用了很多钢琴和箱琴来演绎这简简单单的音色，你想过，感觉过，但当心里的暗黑王子真正象坐在你面前用清爽的箱琴为你诉说感情破裂和丧母之后的哀伤心情的时候。没有人不会颤抖。每个人都会惊异于billy的淡淡的美。

淡淡的箱琴的声音，又节奏的朦胧不真实的小鼓点，泛起的式一篇深情，象摇篮曲一般。 “creastfallen”用典雅的钢琴配上好像夜里天上星星般一闪一闪的beat。“annie dog”的钢琴节奏又变的黯然起来，好像现在我独处一个小屋才能体会到的滋味。tear是首荡气回肠的作品，尤其是billy说"tear me apart，tear me apart from u "的时候，有几个人真的能把自己的身体就这样撕扯回来呢，撕碎自己或是不在挂念曾经融为一体的自己的另一个部分。“shame”很萧条，总是shame，shame，shame。感觉很舒服。最后“blankpage”也令我心碎，但是总的说还是for martha最让我感动。

这张adore式billy为母亲致敬的专辑，长达8分钟的“for martha”是真真正正纪念母亲的作品，里面让我流泪的一句便是“someday ill follow you and see you on the other side ”

if you have to go dont say goodbye
if you have to go dont you cry
if you have to go i will get by
someday ill follow you and see you on the other side

开头部分只有忧伤的钢琴伴着，后来则推至高潮变得激情彭湃。我要把它献给不再留恋感情的人们。美丽而哀伤的唱片，苦涩的味道无处不在，想，小的时候总是多少有些叛逆想在sp身上找寻狂乱的弥漫的疯癫的声音，现在大些了才明白能使人获得生命的契机的音乐无处不在，不光是s/p绝望的躲在角落子怜的吟唱抑或是当年睥睨群雄霸气冲天的他们。

吉他的飙音或是温柔流淌的箱琴的声音都是这天籁的声音，都完全可以触动心灵。他们总能给予我力量，并以这无形的力量让他们的音乐迂回在脑海中。